Figuring It All Out.

Have you ever felt like this frog right here?
In the picture, you see that the frog is blurry while the grass is perfectly clear.
In real life situation, you're constantly moving and thinking while everything else around you are still and at rest.
It's like you can be screaming on the top of your lungs but no one can hear you, so you stress.
No one is paying attention to you...you're lonely.
That's what I feared the most to be.
But things are coming to place in my mind.
I've been figuring out a lot now that I'm not blind.


Figuring It Out.

[part 1.]
Things in life aren't permanent. That's why change happens when they do.
I just thought the change would happen still being with you.
But usually when you act this way it's because there is someone else.
Don't worry; I'll leave you alone because you tend to think about yourself.
I mean you do say to make yourself happy you have to be selfish.
Sometimes I wonder if there was something that I missed.
Scrutinizing everything that happened and wondering if things are okay.
Trying to figure everything out but feelings seems to change everyday.
I guess it's true that people who love each other sometimes aren't meant to be together.
If so, why does something always happens, then we end up coming back to each other?

[part 2.]
Don't you ever wonder how it would be with me?
Or was that something I only imagined us to be?
If you loved me enough you wouldn't do anything to hurt me.
I thought if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.
But you're holding back because you won't take a risk with me to fall in love.
If we weren't meant to be together why are we still in this situation?
Can't you see, we are supposed to be together or we would have been done.
I love you because you stand out to me but there's nothing more I can say or do.
Because it's not me that's holding us, it's you.
I guess being together is something you never wanted.
The whole thing was just a beautiful image in my head...

[part 3.]
Figuring it all out and things are coming into place.
It wasn't you; it was fear that I couldn't face.
I'm scared to let you go because I'm scared to start over.
Wishing things would go to how they were.
All smiles and no tears.
A little too late for that it appears.
Might sound cocky, but you'll never find another like me.
Best you never had, it seems to be.
I would always be there for you when possible.
I wish thins between us would just stay stable.
But you let go, so I am too.
I guess this is it...we're through??

[part 4. last part.]
I know this is for the best.
Wish we could put the past to rest.
So we could jsut be cool and best friends again.
Didn't want anything to end.
Life isn't easy, but we try the best we can.
If you ever need me, I'll always be there with a helping hand.
You still mean a lot to me and I still will tell you, 143.
Just wish there was something we could do to make it the way it's supposed to be.
Hate to admit it but I thinkg this is the end...for now.
It's sad because sometimes I don't get how?
We're supposed to be best friends so why are there so many problems with us?
I guess when feelings start to get in the way, that's what starts the fuss.
But I have figured it out, and it was never you.
It was the fear of being lonely that wouldn't let me through.